I think I’ve replayed Adele’s “Someone Like You” a million times…watched the video a bunch of times too…she filmed it Paris, just in case you didn’t pay attention or know…the city of love… Well, love is created between two people and obviously it doesn’t just happen in the city of lights. But people often have regrets which are misplaced in the place(s) of their hearts and mind they haven’t explored or felt. So this poem is about that – misplaced regrets…of a girl or a guy.
I’ve held on to it for a while but feel good about sharing it with you now.
One love,
T
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“I wish I could have loved you better”
is what he said to me
on that day we
bumped into one another
randomly
on the street.
And often,
I look back and wonder
what he really meant,
because, to me,
he did love me,
in his own way….
well…
except for the times he
seemed to have escaped
the circle of where we placed
our love and then…
and then he became
a different man…
I didn’t recognize him anymore
so I just assumed that
he escaped US forever.
I mean, he LEFT without
a real good-bye
or an explanation of why
he couldn’t just stay…
but I took that to mean
that he just wasn’t
the right one FOR ME
so when he said to me
“I wish I loved you differently”
I thought –
“Would that have made a difference really?
Or would we have just prolonged the inevitable?”
I actually don’t want to know.
What once was
but couldn’t remain
is something which now
I see as
a reason.
It was a reason for
MY change.
I’ve become the woman who
I’ve always wanted to be –
one who is honest and real,
a woman who stands in her own integrity –
And not because
that’s who you made me
but that’s who
I’ve worked hard to be.
So all the
could haves,
should haves,
or would haves
aren’t relevant anymore
‘cuz the woman who
you ran into on the street that day
may not have even allowed
you to talk to her
that long time ago
let alone have
let you into her world.
I guess that sounds
a little cold
but I’ve become better
and you still seem to be standing
in that same place
where you stood before.
I’m not gullible now
to your
“I wish I could have loved you more”
which of course,
I’ve heard before…
my most honest
and realest reply,
which I don’t have to give
would be:
“When your right one comes along,
don’t shy away from loving her more.
Much more…than you were ever
able to love me.”
*****
You can watch Adele’s video here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLQl3WQQoQ0
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