This is a strange thing –
I’ve not felt this way before
and as such is the truth,
I start to think –
Is it really okay that I feel like this???
I am being vague I realize
so I’ll have to take my time
to paint this picture of what seems to be
a full-blown case of tummy butterflies….
It doesn’t take much really
for these butterflies the size of eagles
to start fluttering around my stomach…
eliminating my appetite,
giving me the runs,
disturbing my sleep,
and at the same time,
putting a goofy perma-smile on my face
so that I literally look as happy as a clown – !
All you really have to do is say “Hi”
or “Ayo gurl! How’s you today?”
It can be via text, email or Facebook chat,
and any of that will leave me with butterflies
which fly from my tummy to my heart…and back.
Oh and then there is Skype!
Do you even know how fast my heart races
when I see you calling via a video call request?!
Even as I answer
I try to be cool
while the butterflies still keep doing what they do.
But when I see your face
and hear your voice say “Hey!”
It’s like you served strong coffee to the butterflies
who seem to now work overtime, extra hard.
Then my palms get sweaty,
my heart beats faster,
my face gets hotter….
I hope the camera doesn’t pick up red
for I am not ready for you to know
that you have made my whole body very, very warm.
So you think Skype-ing with you is bad?
Yeah….it gets even worse
when I know that I will see you in person!
Especially if I know way in advance –
Not only are those butterflies working extra hard
but I fail to eat,
I can’t sleep…
I have a hard time doing anything but daydream!
And then THE moment comes
when we meet face-to-face
and it’s as if you take all these butterflies away…
because instantly I’m cool and I feel good.
And it makes me wonder how you got me so good?!
Do you plant these butterflies
with your words or your voice?
Or have you placed them only in my tummy
so that they respond just to
YOUR voice and YOUR words,
so much so that it’s starting to make me wonder
if you’re the butterfly whisperer no one’s yet heard of?
I’ve now realized that you have way more control
over my appetite, sleep and thoughts
than I’d ever let you know….
But since it’s all real – I sincerely feel this way –
this is what my friends want me to say:
“Will you please spend time with your gurl
so she doesn’t starve and waste away??”